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Canary - Chapter 3 [Cole/F!Trevelyan]

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Chapter 3: Varric

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One kiss breaches the distance between friendship and love.

Cole sat alone on the ramparts in the middle of the night, his foot tapping against the bricks as he rocked back and forth. His mind was clear, at least from the other people around Skyhold, but his own problem was swimming around in his head. Was it a problem? It didn't seem that way. Since Trevelyan had kissed him, nothing has changed. She didn't avoid him, she hasn't treated him any differently, at most she averts her eyes from him when he looks toward her. Is this how women acted when they liked someone? Did Trevelyan like him? Was he allowed to ask? How do people go about relationships? Or starting one? He should ask Varric, or should he figure it out on his own? Maybe Dorian? When Trevelyan is near him, his hands get sweaty, he becomes nervous, anxious. He's afraid he might say something wrong, or make a fool of himself. He's never been nervous like that before. He was worried when he went out with Trevelyan and Varric when he became more human but they helped him, made it fun and natural. Was what he was feeling natural? Was feeling nauseous around Trevelyan natural? Cole tilted his head towards the door when he heard it open. Varric walked through, one hand raking through his disheveled hair and the other holding a half empty bottle of dwarven ale.

I thought I heard someone walking around.” Varric yawned, walking over to Cole, “Couldn't sleep?”

Sleeping has been...difficult.” Cole looked back out towards Skyhold, “I am getting better at it though.”

So, Kid,” Varric pulled himself onto the wall and twisted around, facing Skyhold with Cole, “What's keeping you awake on this glorious night?”

I have a lot on my mind.” Cole looked down at Varric, “I'm not use to thinking so much about one thing. It was easier, when I was more like a spirit. Now that I am becoming more Human it seems...”

You okay, Kid?” Varric leaned his forearms against his thighs, “You've been distant, aloof even.”

I do not know, honestly.” Cole spoke softly, looking down at Varric, “I've never had these emotions before, I don't know what they are or how to deal with them.”

Varric shrugged, “Try explaining them to me. My expertise should be put to some use.”

My stomach feels...shaky, nervous, it flips and makes me feel sick, but a good kind. Almost welcomed. I love the feeling but I don't very much care for it either.” Cole tilted his head down, furrowing his brows and playing with his gloves.

Like tiny butterflies fluttering around?” Varric chuckled, taking a swing of Ale.

Yes!” A heart warming laugh left Cole's lips, “That's it! That's exactly it! A—And my chest...it's hard to breathe, almost unbearable, it hurts but not physically. It aches sometimes, usually when I am alone. I feel dizzy too, like I'm about to pass out but then...a smile.”

Her smile?” Varric smirked, bringing the bottle up to his lips.

...Yes.” Cole tilted his head down, hiding his own smile. “But...spirits should not have these feelings. Solas—”

She gave you a choice, Cole.” Varric straightened up, becoming more serious as he spoke, “She let you make the decision to become more human. She asked you what you wanted. Your opinion matters to her. She just wants you happy, Kid.”

What of Solas?” Cole shook his head, “He doesn't approve of what I am feeling.”

Chuckles is just pissed that his own spirit mistress, or master, didn't chose to flow out of the fade like you did.”

But I didn't—”

I know, Kid.” Varric drank the last of his ale, “I was trying to make a joke but it has recently come to my attention that I'm not exactly funny while intoxicated.”

Cassandra thought it was funny when you fell off the ramparts last week.” Cole looked back out towards Skyhold.

Varric grunted back, “I'll keep that in mind next time I see her.” The two sat in comfortable silence, Varric throwing his empty bottle behind him, over the ramparts and down into the mountain fog.

She kissed me.” Cole spoke after Varric leaned back forward, “A week ago, she kissed me. I told her that I cared about her, more than a spirit should be allowed. I was rambling and she kissed me and said 'I understand.' And she left.”

She just left?” Varric chuckled, shaking his head. What a tease.

I care for her...I am still not sure if I am allowed to. Many people here don't seem to like the idea of her with...me.” Cole tilted his head down, a very noticeable frown plastered on his lips.

Honestly,” Varric grunted, leaning his elbows against his thighs, “A lot more people would rather see you with her. After the whole Cullen fiasco, a lot of people aren't pleased with him—me included. Bull and Dorian have bets to see what happens with you two. Pretty much everyone in Skyhold has bet on you two—”

I know.” Cole turned his head to the side, looking at Varric, “People's minds aren't as quiet as I would like them to be.”

Varric chuckled, slapping his hand on Cole's shoulder, “I'm glad I don't have that gift. Maker knows I would abuse the shit out of it.” Cole laughed, straightening his back as he did so.

The point is, Kid, you care about her. From the way you look at her, no one could deny it. You worry, a lot. When she chooses not to take you on missions, you panic, you worry. It's natural when you've come to care about someone like the way you care for her.” Varric turned around on the wall and hoped off, “Do what you want to do, Kid. Maker only knows if we will be alive by time Corypheus shows himself.”

Thank you, Varric.” With that Varric left, leaving Cole to his thoughts.

Title: Canary
Author: CommanderLavellan
Game: Dragon Age: Inquisition
Main Characters: Cole, Varric
Disclaimer: In no way-shape-or-form do I own any of these characters.
Pairing: Cole/F!Trevelyan
Story Rating: T
Chapter Rating: K

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